I have a friend who has journalled every day for at least 15 years. For the same period of time she has read the word of God and My Utmost for His Highest every morning.
I can't tell you whether her motivation has been duty or delight on any given day.
What I do know is that she has some kind of a record of her days, God's working, and her responses.
My journals by contrast are large gaps, punctuated by sporadic entries. God has not been silent in my life, I've simply been shortsighted and undisciplined in my attempt to capture the rich graces He has poured out on me.
I know that many of my posts are variations on the same theme - but then again - it's all about Him. That is the best news possible.
I had some required vocational reading recently. The author asks the reader to come up with one word that "invariably describes" them.
I struggled - but the choices all rang the same note : "smatterer, dabbler, googler, flitterer" or any other word that describes the person who spreads themselves thinly across many disciplines, friends and causes - and is never truly satisfied.
Randy Alcorn's Facebook entry yesterday started: "We must say no to a thousand good things in order to remain free to say yes to the very few things God calls us to do."
I have known this for sometime. I don't know where to go from here.
If you are reading this and care enough to pray - join me in my pleading that He might show me.